have you tried unplugging it?
feeling like the turbulence (the “accident”) yesterday actually knocked something loose. like cork that was bottling up a whole buncha gratitude and grounding. it doesn’t feel as extreme as the portal that is opened when a love one is lost, but it’s powerful.
was sitting at home after spending the rest of the day on the phone trying to line up transportation, and get insurance shit sorted out. once all that was done for the day i finally got a chance to sit and feel. how’s that crick in my neck? is my forehead bruised, scraped? why am i so tired? i hope dave is ok (the other driver) grateful that i wasn’t driving a fraction slower or i would have taken a corolla to my driver side door, grateful that it was in our neighborhood and for all the neighbors that rushed out to check on us, grateful for my partner and her parents for being minutes away, grateful that dave is insured, grateful for all the friends and family who shared their love and care.
when all these thoughts and feelings had passed i looked out the bedroom window and saw our beautiful solitary cherry tree in full bloom. i grabbed my camera to snap a couple memories and found myself back in the arms of nature. being in, and photographing with the elements is such a meditative, awe inspiring, truly fulfilling experience.
